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Revamp

2006-10-18T03:51:00.000-07:00

Salamat at natpos ko na ang obligations ko sa school. I really had fun sa finals. That's right you read it: "FUN"...dun kasi ako nag-review sa bahay ng kaklase ko. I've learned a lot from her. Coz she's really smart! Promise! I hope me napulot din siya sakin nung nagstay ako don ng 4 days sa kanila! haha! Right now, I'm really expecting na makatanggap ng mas mataas na marka for my very first Sem in college...sari saring diskarte ang inapply ko...alam niyo na yun.

Peeps, I'm having a hard time sa ngayon. Haaay busy talaga ako ngayon: fixing my life. Marami na kasi akong mga "kabulastugang" ginagawa almost everyday of my life. Nagpapasalamat nalang ako at buhay pa rin ako at marami paring nagmamahal sa akin. Although marami ang nagsasawa pero marami naman ang natutuwa sa akin...

May naka-away nanaman ako last week. Pero I made my way to speak to that person. Gladly she responded naman. Problema ko kung paano ko siya kakausapin...problema na niya kung ayaw na niya akong makausap.

I'm looking forward to next week. Kasi enrollment nanaman. Busy nanaman ulit as usual. Pilahan, tulakan at habulan sa oras...got a lot of things to do pa nga before I hit school next semester:

1. Have my hair arranged kasi magulo na talaga to.
2. Get my face pampered kasi di ko alam kung kailan ko ulit ito maaalagaan ng husto. mukha na nga akong losyang sa sobrang pagwawalang bahala sa self ko.
3. Arrange my room, kasi there's no place like my room.
4. Wash my bags, kasi same din yung reason sa no. 2. Di ko alam kung kailan ko uli mapapansin na madumi yung mga yun.

Sa ngayon wala lang, focused ako sa pagrerelax at paghahanda next sem. Kasi balita ko terror teacher ang makakasagupa namin next sem. (at inexagge ko pa yung term "makasagupa"). Programming na daw kasi kami...indangered na ako sa dream kong maging "Cum Laude". Kahit yun lang (nagbibiro ba ako?! mahirap yun!). Sana man lang mabigyan ko na ng kalinawan ang mga katanungan sa isipan ko ngayon. Sabi daw nila cure daw ang: "TULOG"...pero pag gising mo, ganun pa rin. Mas loko-loko ang magsasabing maglasing, mas mabuting matulog nalang. Pero ang pinakamabuting solusyon diyan ay: magdasal.

depressed?

2006-09-21T05:53:00.000-07:00

Been there...did that. There are a lot of strategies that I have done just to avoid getting hurt. I hate expecting too much. Gives me the ache when I know that I don't stand any chance. Ang sama talaga nung feeling.

May gusto kang guy tapos kala mo type ka din niya...hayun. Pretend pretend ka na pakipot...tapos malalaman mo all of a sudden. taken na pala. Yan tuloy mukha kang inosenteng tanga. How about doing that for more than 10x...kakapagod right? Dahil gusto mo lang talagang magmadali na magkaBF...broken-puso ka tuloy. Pili-pili ka pa jan sa magiging dreamguy mo...tapos aabutin mo, yan pa. Hate it talaga.

A.S.A. why is it so bad? Ang sama mong tignan. babae ka pa naman. first reason yan...second, mukha ka nang tanga, inuulit mo pa. Di mo mapigilan e. Ganun talaga. Mas mabuting gawin...matulog. Di na iisipin lahat ng related sa mga ganung bagay.

Note to the readers: Pesensiya na po kung hindi niyo ma-intindihan ang mga pinagsusulat ko po dito. Just typing whatever pops sa utak ko. Depressed ako ngayon guys e. I'm cheering myself up...

Mr Blog...

2006-08-25T04:24:00.000-07:00

Meet Mr. Blog...babaguhin ko na po yung set up ko sa blog ko. I want to keep my posts personal...at the same time pampubliko. Gusto ko kasi ma-express yung mga saloobin ko ng husto. Get what I mean? Fire Away...

Dear Mr. Blog,

I've been suffering (wierd) feelings since last week. I find it really hard to interpret whatever was on my mind.

I won't attend the "Millitary Ball", that's tonite. I just don't feel like it. I'm bored and I'm so...not into having fun right now. And I wanna talk to my friends.

I wanna stop hurting people. Sometimes I just wanna runaway from my feelings. I want to seek the inner me (God, ang drama ko ngayon). Marami kasing bagay na gusto kong sabihin, pero di ko pwedeng sabihin. Because I might hurt. Now, I don't wanna do that.

I'm rebuilding myself, I have to. Maybe, all teens get through situations like this. When life really gets confusing. Loving the wrong person, getting along with people I never ever hung out with, confused between studies and sports, low self-esteem..etc.

Mr. Blog, I feel...parang nasa preso. Di ako makalabas. Kasi minsan di ko maamin sa sarili ko yun g tunay kong nararamdaman. It hurts inside. Di ako makahinga. Para na akong iiyak. I wanted to break free and I want to discover myself na...but can't rush it I know.

Trapped like a mouse on a deadend. That's how I can describe myself right now. O, did I say that I'm so crushed? I'm sixteen, about to turn seventeen this coming sept 4. I want to do something different. That's why I had to come up with this list:

1. Gusto ko, tatawagin na akong "ate" ng mga bunso sa team namin.
2. Gusto ko nang yumaman--that means, I have to save save save.
3. Gusto ko nang tumigil sa taekwondo--dahil naaapektuhan na yung grades ko.
4. Gusto ko nang magka-bf, dahil ang lungkot kapag wala di ba?
5. Gusto ko nang maging mature--kahit di sa lahat ng bagay...pwede na rin.
6. Gusto kong maging mas totoo pa ako sa sarili ko--no pretentions.
7. Gusto kong sundin ang quote na ito: "think first before you act".
8. Gusto kong bayaran lahat ng mga utang ko--financial man o hindi...it's payback time.
9. Gusto ko nang makipagpeace sa world--para wala nang mabigat sa loob mo di ba?
10. Gusto kong mas maging mapagkumbaba sa kapwa--whether it's not being jealous or being contented with what I have...kasama na din yun don.
11. Gusto kong makipag-date kay God palagi. Miss ko na kasi Siyang ka-bonding.
12. Gusto ko nang iwan ang masasamang gawi ko. Kaso I have to enumerate pa e...
13. Gusto kong maging mas considerate sa ibang bloggers. Yung iba, me time para sa bloghops kahit hectic, tapos ako...ayoko nang sabihin--sisisihin ko nananaman sarili ko niyan e.
14. Gusto kong maging less vocal kapag grades and school ang pag-uusapan. Mas mabuti nang manahimik sa nakuhang uno para walang gulo--oops.
15. Gusto kong makabonding ang mga pinsan ko. I live within their bounderies tapos di ko kayang makisama--sama ko talaga.
16. Gusto kong manahimik na lang kapag inaaway (or pinagsasabihan rather) ako ng parents ko.
17. Gusto kong i-declutter ang marumi kong cabinet--closet ko kasi, parang di taga-21st century yung may ari e. Parang kapanahunan pa ni Da Vinci. Biro lang siyempre (ang exagge ko naman).
18. Gusto kong mag-express, rather than impress...mapapahiya lang ako kapag nagpa-impress kasi ako e.

Yan...nabuo ko na. Now all I have to do, is just follow the list...and get a good life ahead of me. It's really hard being a teenager. Everybody knows that. Pray lang ako for guidance.

I'm back!

2006-08-11T04:31:00.000-07:00

Guys! Buhay pa ako! I'm back! Hey...musta ka kayo? Miss you all! College gave me a toast of what they call: SWEET TORTURE. Kakapagod pala mag-aral kapag tinututukan mo yung subject. After the midterm exams, I promised myself to be more religious in studying. I have to manage my time as a University varsity in Taekwondo and a hardworking IT student. I have to make most of my potentials. That's what I'm always thinking coz that's what is driving me to strive hard.

Before I get to my main topic, update muna sa crushes...hehe. Kita niyo yung guy diyan sa pic? Gusto kong ligawan yan...adik ako sa kanya sobra! hehe...guys...pag me alam kayo na fansite niya, paki-refer sa kin ha?? Salamat. His smile just drives me N.U.T.S. di ko mapigilan sarili ko!

So anyway:
Applying in the school's varsity team wasn't easy. You had to qualify for the tryouts and spar with a black belter. Then when you're in the team, you have to make major adjustments. Practices start from 5pm-7pm...but it was okay though. Coz my Bhouse is just a block away from school and I'm with a friend.

Few days ago, I tortured myself. I slept from 9pm-12am then be awake until 3am or worse...4am. It wasn't hard when you want something. I wanted this...I wanted to give recognition to myself somehow. Kasi puro nalang ako bulakbol then. I didn't have a chance to prioritize and give extra effort on my studies when I was in high school, I was a slow-poke when it comes to learning. I have fought serious battles in the academic world and manage to crawl back even though I was partially...let's say...dropped to the ground. My parents even felt bad when I graduated as the lone sports awardee. My mom was once a valedictorian from the same school where I graduated. So for her...it was maybe an insult. And I will never forget how I made her so frustrated. I myself felt bad. But what can I do? I love the sport...

Now, I'm done with the first half of the semester...next week, it'll be back to business. I'll be back to pressing my nose against the piles of notes. And I promised myself to try just one more time...and if I fail? Well, maybe another try won't hurt a bit...

At guys...may nakuha na akong mga links ng official site ni Kim Jae Won:
http://www.estars.co.kr/kjw/
http://www.wonnizzang.com/
http://www.candice.ye.ro/
http://jewon.ce.ro/
http://www.jw.vv.st/
http://www.kimjaewon.co.kr/
http://www.4rinmiso.co.kr/
http://www.jw1004.wo.to/
http://cafe.daum.net/kimjaewon0218/
http://gojaewon.wo.to/
http://www.jaewon.org/
http://www.candice.ye.ro/
http://kimjaewonland.cjb.net/
http://jaewonfan.com.ne.kr/
http://www.jaewonkim.net/
http://myhome.naver.com/kjw8990/main.htm
http://search.empas.com/http://kr.search.yahoo.com/

sandali lang to...

2006-07-28T01:35:00.000-07:00

Haay...sorry at salamat sa mga nag-daan pa rin sa blog ko. I've been quite busy now. Kasi it's nearly midterm exams and Taekwondo practice is putting so much pressure too. Too bad I wasn't able to update. Well, here I am again with my apology. Daan sana kayo ulit dito kahit on Hiatus ako. La lang gusto ko lang kayo maramdaman e...

So far, I'm faced with a lot of challenges maging sa bahay na tinitirhan ko kung san ako nabo-board. Kay sarap umuwi ng probinsiya. Ngayon andito nanaman ako. And I really can't help it. I needed to come home kasi miss ko dito. Santol, my friends, my fam, at yung place kung saan kami nagtatambay ng iba pang TKD jins dito sa City namin. (BTW, I'm taking my promotional test on Sunday sa Taekwondo).

Hmmm...lemme "RECAP" some events that happened to me while I was away (sa computer).

I learned how to read tabs...hahaha! I could only read chords lang sa guitar e! Hehe. Special thanks to Professor Ramon J. Z. Villanueva a.k.a. my classmate. Marami kasi kaming free time this week kaya napag-isipan naming mag-jamming. Dinala ko yung gitara ko. Then my classmate Ramon, taught me how to read the tabs properly...ehehe.

I finished another book! ehehehe...maikli lang yun e. Pambata! hehe...another story by ROALD DAHL (yung sumulat nung Charlie and the Chocolate Factory). Masaya na ako kasi accomplishment ko na yun. Tinuro sakin kasi ni Maiza yung right way sa pagbabasa ng mga pocket books and novels e...she dared me actually. She told me to read Dan Brown's Deception Point. Tama ba yung title?? hehe. Kasi pinakita niya sakin kanina yung book, then napanganga ako. Sabi ko "di ako marunong"...(kitams, di ba naman marunong magbasa??)--DUH?? hehe...

Ay oo nga pala, Maiza offered to burn me the koreanovela, "Wonderful Life". Alam niya kasi na napapaiyak ako sa story. Crush ko si Kim Jae Won (and in fairness he's just 25 years old--my chance pa...hehe). Cute kasi siya pag-umiiyak. Idol ko din si Eugene at ang kyut kyut ng anak! Pangalan ni Janine in korean is "Xinbi". Pati si Maiza, kinikilig din (in fact sabi niya nakita niya si Mama niya umiiyak sa likod nila habang nanonood). Mahilig kasi si Maiza mag-"Rent" ng koreanovelas. She doesn't have to see it on ABS or GMA. Lucky me coz she offered to burn me a copy of WL.

Midterms is coming! Oh God...I better prepare lots of coffee...pati na rin mga vitamins saka gamot in case magkasakit sa sobrang pagod. These are just some of the things I need to bring sa Bhouse:

1. Glutaphos --gamot
2. Stresstabs --vitamins
3. Gatas --...gatas!
4. Milo --..in case mawalan ng energy
5. Coffee --..in case ayaw ko pang maidlip
6. Coffeemate --..maiidlip ako kapag wala ito
7. Rosary --sigurado...it'll give me the strength that I need
8. confidence...--KAYA KO TO!

College and High School

2006-07-14T01:44:00.000-07:00

Asenso na ako...you guys know why?? Kasi...for the first time in my life-history, I read 3 novels straight for less than a week. (5 days lang ata)...or less than 5 days. I never read novels. Tinatamad kasi ako. Pero nung mabasa ko yung "Princess Diaries" (kitams...huli talaga ako!), tuloy tuloy na po! hehe. Tinuruan kasi ako nung kaklase ko (and closest friend ko sa room), na si Maiza kung paano ang tamang pagbasa ng novel. Dapat nga pala siguro..."you've got to be what you are reading" parang ini-imagine mo yung lahat ng mga pangyayari. Kasi ako dati pag-nagbabasa parang walang nangyayri e (hal: namatay yung isang important character--natapos ko yung half sa kuwento, di ko alam namatay pala...nagugulat lang ako kung bakit di ko nanababasa yung name ng character na yun. So, babalikan ko nanaman yung previous pages--haaay). I finished Princess Diaries I and II pagkatapos I read "The Witches". Children's story yun, binasa ko lang. Pero ang tagal matapos ha?!. Baby steps muna, bago yung mga Dan Brown type of novels. hehe...immature talaga ako minsan.

TAMBAYAN

Classes have been suspended, dahil sa buhos ng grasya sa langit--ang ulan. Saya namin kasi no test on IT Fundamentals (By the way, InfoTech pala course ko). Ang dami pa namang dapat isaulo. All those parts in the system unit and stuffs. Ginusto ko to, kaya titiisin ko. (I remembered the time nung pinapili ako between Nursing o yung school na pinapasukan ko ngayon--kukunin ko nursing pagnag-IT ako sa UP, kasi malayo)..hirap nun ano?

So anyway, nagtambal nalang kami buong maghapon pagkatapos naming magtest sa Mechanics. E di naubos yung pera ko sa kakabili ng Buko Juice. hehe. Tambay kami ng blockmates ko sa red benches (malapit sa HQ ng APO<--na frat). Usap2x kami, at mas nakikilala namin ang isa't isa somehow (isang month na kaming magkasama!).

COLLEGE SUCKS--THEN

Akala ko puro bukol ang makukuha ko dito. DI naman pala. My classmates in high school are a lot different than my college peeps. They're diffrent in a different way. Maging sa pagiging plastic o sa pagiging totoo sa tao. In college, di kami nagpaplastikan--prangkahan kaagad (actually me anomalya na nung kalagitnaan ng june, pero naayos kaagad). Nung HS, lagi kaming nag-aaway, nagpaplastikan minsan. In college, nobody calls me "UGLY", sa HS, ramdam ko lagi that I was pangit--due to the "pakikitungo minsan ng iba kong kaklase (but I forgave them naman kaso di ko talaga maalis sa kukote ko)...kahit sabihin lang naman na: "di ka naman pangit ah"...o see the difference? (drama ko ngayon).

I'm just being hopeful na sana di na magbago pa ang takbo ng mundo ko sa colegio. Tama na yung nakakasundo ko ang lahat, walang nang-aaway at pinapahalagahan ako. Tinatrato akong kaibigan ng lahat--come to think of it, ang gaganda at ang gagwapo pa ng mga kaklase ko sa college, tapos, ang bait pa nila sa akin (now that's what I call a blessing). EQUAL TREATMENT kami dun...I thank GOD for that, everytime I recall what happens to me during the day.

Aquaintance...

2006-07-08T20:50:00.000-07:00

I haven't blogged since...like...forever? I have lotsa stories to share, but I guess there's little time to spare for that. Oooh...I'm so sorry to those pips that I forgot to visit (their blogs). My schedule is so terrible to describe. I didn't even have time for myself anymore. This is too much pressure for a freshie like me you know...but I'm doing fine though.

Yesterday I washed my clothes (the usual kuso't babad). Including the nice-guy-blouse my cousin lend me. She lemme borrow some of her accessories too, which includes the belt and thing sandals. Why did I need those? We had our College Acquaintance party last Friday, and it was smashing fun! At first it was pretty boring coz all we did was to just sit and stare. Fun came when the Search for the Acquaintance King and Queen started to roll. I enjoyed watching my kapwa feshmen join the so-called Annual DATING GAME! haha! It was a surprised to those who were chosen to be a searchee (of course it was chosen randomly--e kung hinde, edi walang sasali!)

The food was okay, and I couldn't describe the funny-ness (anu yun?!), the staff and teachers made that night. It was sort of a music vid they made as tribute to the IICT 4th year students. Aaaaw...funny pa sana pero mukhang me naging EMO nung gabing yun. Baka ayaw pa niyang iwanan yung school...

Anyway, there's much to tell pa sana but I just wanna keep this post short. Since I have no idea when I'll be back into blogging again. Perhaps 2 weeks later...or so? Hope I could adjust well...

Damn Week

2006-06-30T19:33:00.000-07:00

Goodness, nakakuha ako ng isang bagsak sa quiz! Yikes! 2/10 ba naman ako sa Filipino?! Pero, okay lang. Kasi binawi ko naman sa sumunod na quiz e. Terror pa naman si Sir Prof! Hahaha!

Sige na nga, tama na muna yung mga scores sa quizzes. This week, ordinary lang. Nagkaroon nga nung acquaintance party (University Acquiantance actually), kaunti lang yung pumunta. Sinira nung weather yung momen. Shucks...sayang. Naka "Rakista" outfit pa naman ako. Dami kong nakain dun sa food fest. Halo2x (kahit malamig--ang weird ano?), Baconcheesedog sa bun, pancakes, popcorn and Iced tea...buti naman at nakatulog ko ng mahimbing pag-uwi ko. Sa sobrang pagod ko, napauwi ako kaagad 9pm ata. Bakit kasi kumanta pa yung taga-Nursing e (di naman sa iniinsulto ko yung mga taga-Nursing). Me kumanta na taga-Nursing, naku! Pinili pa yung pyesang mahirap...tapos...UMAMBON! Nakipag-showdown pa! Hahaha! Ewan ko kasi kung bakit, squeel siya ng squeel. Di niya kasi maabot yung tamang pitch nung song. Haaay...

After the Party, the next day, nagkaroon ng Do-Day (araw ng paglilinis ng mga iniwang kalat sa party--pinasosyal lang, kaya: Do-Day). I wore jacket (kahit mainit). E kung sa ayaw kong umitin dahil sa sobrang init...paki ba nila ano? Hehe...La lang linis lang. Pagkatapos, uwi kaagad tapos naming makipag-chikahan sa mga classmates namin. Saya pala nilang kasama...

Kasama ko yung classmate ko sa kabilang school. Uwi kami ng Probinsya...hehehe. (Probinsyang 45 mins lang ang lapit sa syudad--o kitams?). I miss my hometown! At ngayon at andito na ako, haaay. Masarap parin pag-uwi! Miss ko na sila Ermats and Pats ko!

Mayabang na Gwapito...

2006-06-22T00:46:00.000-07:00

Teka nga! Kasi kakapost ko palang kahapon e...there's this (stupid) event that happened. First 2 weeks ko palang sa school (in college) me anomalya na...

Merong lalaki dun sa section namin (gwapo siya para sa karamihan, pero coz we're classmates, we'd always ignore him), nakuuu! Sobrang feeling niya ha (tawag ko nga sa kanya "feeler" e!) ?! Nakakainis siya! Akala niya kasi me C.R.U.S.H. ako sa kanya! Diyos natin naman o, of all the people na paghihinalaan niya, bakit ako?!

Meron kaming hyper na kaklase. Palagi silang magkasama ni Mr. X (tatawagin ko nalang siyang Mr. X--para unknown di ba?)...so pag magkasama sila, they would usually talk about E.T.C. things under the sun. Siguro napagdiskusyonan na nila ako. Kasi lagi niya akong nahuhuli, making eye contact with him--pero di yun sinasadya anu?! Ako? Sa lalaking yun? (Ika nga ni Say) Hindi kaya?! As in everyday, eye contact talaga kami. Pero it wasn't my intention talaga na titigan siya!

One time (sa PE class namin), my classmate was reciting. Tapos tinititigan ko yung classmate ko habang nagsasalita, tas bigla siyang umupo. Sinundan pa rin siya nung mata ko, but then...I caught Mr. X staring at me! God, why?! Tapos iisipin nanaman niya, Crush ko siya?! Goodness! Huwag niya naman sana akong i judge sa crime na di ko naman ginawa...one second thought...was it a crime to even "ACCIDENTALLY" stare at him? I dunno why does it have to be a big deal for him...

Classmate ko nung High School (since we're on the same campus), had a crush on him since day one. Even yung mga bakla na kumukuha ng BSPE, type nga siya e. Pero it doesn't have to mean na, type ko din siya dba? F.Y.I. andun pa yung "cutie" ko back on my Hometown...and I can't love two guys with one heart?! heller?! Mr. X is putting too much malice sa mga actions ko.

Recently, sinabi sakin ni Maiza (classmate ko BSIT) na nahuli niya daw si MR. X na tinititigan ako. Nakatalikod ako tapos, tinitigan niya ako (na parang nasusuka ata) as in ng matagal. Nag-"twitch" talaga yung head niya sakin tapos he just stared at me lang...parang he was expecting na tititigan ko siya ulit! (Kasi nga di ba akala niya my gusto ako sa kanya?) Hahaha! Tinawanan ko nalang yung whole thing pero siyempre nagulat din! Tapos inamin ko ke Maiza na, la talaga akong gusto sa kanya...dahil, simply WALA talaga. I mean do I need to prove it?

As of now, hinahayaan ko nalang siya sa kung anuman yung iisipin niya. (Even though he constantly turns his back every now and then just to check if I was staring at him) Wala na akong pakialam. Kapal siya if he trusted his instincts...

Day Break: on Hiatus

2006-06-19T23:46:00.000-07:00

Hey! Omigosh! It's been decades since I posted here! oooh! I'm so sowee guys! Just went a little nuts on my first day in college! (uhh, first week na pala!) hehe. Lotsa friends, new people, terror teachers, scary projects and new campus! whoo! I enjoyed every minute...well just for now. Later, it would be pretty boring and since I wasn't allowed to try out for the team (in taekwondo), all I have to do is to study...think...solve...sleep...eat...and maybe study again. Sheeesh...it's pretty tiring you know...

My Mom works by day and has 2 sidelines just to give me enough allowance (well she applied as a dealer and she offers tutorials for kindergarteners--you know she's such a smart woman--actually the greatest woman in my life)...while my Dad...delivers the allowance and all my stuffs to me, once a week. And all they want from me is to study hard and do the best I can in school. What can I say? I'm such an idiot sometimes. I pity them for sacrificing a lot (and expecting a lot too). They told me: "Just prove to us that you deserve all our sacrifices"... dunno, but no matter how hard I try sometimes (in my studies), I tend to screw everything up in just a second. Which makes me such a failure.

Somebody told me that what I think of affects what the outcome would be. Well surely, that somebidy was right...I need extra motivation. I just hope that someday, "IT will take me to greater heights"...I'd kill myself if ever I don't pass this course. I love computers so much and I was really hoping that computers would serve as the light to my darkness right now...

PS: I'll be on Hiatus right now...sorry guys...just have to concentrate on my studies for now...I'm gonna miss blogging!

2006-06-07T01:36:00.000-07:00

Ang tagal ko naman magpost ulit. hehe. Anyways, I'm back in School...I mean literally back in school. Punta kami ng mga kaklase ko (in HS of course) sa dati naming school to receive our diplomas (ayaw pa ibigay e, hehe). Di pa kasi namin natatanggap yun. At syempre kelangan din naming dumaan dun before we hit college. It would take us days or even months at makabalik dun.

Alis na pala nung kaklase kong si Cresilda papuntang UP Manila bukas. Haaay, panu na ang loko niyang BF. ("Brother San wag ka nang umiyak!"). Naloloka na ako sa sitwasyon nila ha...ako yung ginagawa niyang bangko ng emosyon niya.

Haaaay, pagbalik ko nga pala sa school e nakita ko yung C.U.T.I.E. ko...(wahehehe). Hiya ako kasi nag-smile pa nga siya! Waaaaa! (Corny!!!) Hehehe, corny mode ako ngayon. Hehe. Minsan ko na kasing kinukwento kay Brother San yung tungkol ke "Cutie" ko e (blush blush!). Hanggang crush lang daw muna ako sabi ng Dada ko (uy malapit na pala Father's Day ha!). Yan tuloy alang asenso sa Lovelife.

Kwento ni Honey

Reklamo ng reklamo si Honey simula nung pumasok na siya sa Dorm niya. Mainit daw, maraming lamok at mabaho. Ayaw daw niya ng mga isineserve na pagkain. Malangsa ata. wahahaha! Para nga daw madaling masunog yung buong bahay. Kwento pa nga niya, Haunted daw yung place! eeek ekekekekek! hehehe.

Sabi ko nga sa kanya dun na siya tumira samin kasi mas accommodated siya. Pero she had to settle things with the 'rents kasi nga sila yung gagasto di ba?

...at ako naman...

Preparing for kolehiyo pa rin. Boring na nga kung me class na. Ayaw kong gumising ng maaga. Marami ata akong ayaw pag may school na e. (masyado akong mareklamo...hehehe)

Mga Ayaw Ko Sa Opening:
1. Gumising ng maaga
2. Maligo sa malamig na tubig
3. Gumawa ng Homework
4. Maglakad papuntang School (kasi medyo nakatago yung boarding house ko e)
5. I hate show-offs (for sure meron nanamang freshmen na magsho-show off ng mga style and everything)

Nabasa ko lang to sa CHALK magazine ha? Tungkol sa mga college freshmen. Minsan daw pinagtatawanan sila ng mga Higher years kasi yung iba e mukhang di school ang pupuntahan--kundi bar...waaaah! Meron din namang mga freshmen na mas prefer yung simpleng look. naka Jeans, Sneaks, blouse na merong statement (like: "I'm HOT). Mas Kyut kaya yun.

Ako nga kung pede lang mag-tsinelas e gagawin ko e. hehe...

2006-06-03T23:02:00.000-07:00

Anniversary ng Parents ko ngayon. 19th year na nilang magkasama e. I'm so happy that they're still intact through the years...

Si Kim pala yung nanalo kagabi. Alam niyo? Nakukyutan ako sa kanila ni Gerald. Perfect Combo yung damit nila kagabi.

Nanood ako ng Wonderful life...parang iiyak na ako kasi me sakit si Janine. Haay, nagtext ako sa kaklase ko...umiyak na daw siya sa previous episode. Hayy naku naku naman, dramatic talaga yun.

Bukas nga pala mag-rereport ako sa future school ko for my ID. Class na rin pala bukas ni Demi, mabuti naman at magkaharap lang yung school namin. In less than ten steps andun na ako sa entrance ng school nila! haha (si Demi pala ay kasama ko sa Taekwondo. team mate ko po siya) In that, way di na ako mangungulila sa mga team players ng taek dito sa Passi, Iloilo

School's Ahead

2006-05-30T02:38:00.000-07:00

Help! I'm so in love with "Free-Time", "vacation!", and the most addicting: "Sleep..." hehe. Man how time flies! Ba't ang dali?!

June 1

I'll be attending the Orientation for the freshmen...jam with my pals after the pre-enrollment.

June 6

Enrollment starts today. I'll be pouring money again. Then maybe transfer all the needed stuffs for the opening. Oh when do I get to buy clothes for school? Money is such a serious matter now. No books or notebooks or shoes yet...sheesh.

June 12

A despedida to my summer days as a high school (fresh) graduate. Goodbye pals, I'll be in college the day after.

June 13

Today is TERROR-day.

I wonder why I'm so pissed-off! It's just that I hate school. I get to see many and different kinds of creatures roaming around the campus. I hated too much crowd. Ewan ko ba...

High Yellow Na!

2006-05-25T04:01:00.000-07:00

Sorry for the delayed update...as of now things are running smoothly. Pero kanina parang my road is on fire sa sobrang hectic ng schedule ko.

Just this morning, I took up our promotional test in Taekwondo. I think it's time I take another step to increase my rank in TKD. From low yellow to high yellow. Well, if I take another step, I'd reach low blue. Mababa pa belt ko kasi minsan lang talaga kami nagcoconduct ng Promotional tests e. Medyo mabagal nga...once a year lang talaga kami nakakapagtaas ng belt namin.

Okay naman kasi mabait naman si Sir Sim (yung nagconduct ng promo). Medyo nagkamali ako sa iba kong mga kicks due to abnormal concentration (tama ba yun?!) hehehe.

Grabe bogchi kaagad pagkatapos...dami ko ngang nakain e! hehehe...napahiya pa ako after I ate this desert na sobrang yummy! Kasi naman dumikit-dikit yung cream sa labi ko. Pinagtawanan pa ako ni Rigil (kasama namin sa taekwondo)...joker talaga yun! hehe

Then right after the promo, hinarap ko naman ang hamon ng totoong buhay: isa dun ay ang pagpasa ng medical requirements ko sa school ko. Promise ko na talaga sa sarili ko: AYOKO nang maging LAZY! Grrr! Sa sobra kong pagpapabaya, yan tuloy di ako nakasama sa Kawilihan Resort kasi kailangan kong lumuwas papuntang Iloilo City talaga para lang makapagpa-PE. Haaay naku...experience nga is the best teacher...sayang ang saya pa daw nila dun.

happy naman ako dahil natapos ko na yung mga pinapagawa sa akin...

Some Weird Things

2006-05-21T01:36:00.000-07:00

There's this guy na mukhang addik na drayber ng isang traysikol ang nagpapapansin sakin...na parang he's a mad man! Ano ba?! WATF*ck is he trying to do?! May hinala na nga ako e...

Medyo nagtampo ako dun sa isa naming kasama sa Taekwondo kasi sinabi niya sa adik na yun yung name ko! Syempre napa"SHYET!" talaga ako! Pero I couldn't blame her din kasi hindi niya alam e...

Natatakot rin ako sa maaaring gawin ng gagong yun! Kahit na I'm learning taekwondo, hindi pa rin dapat ako kampante na lagi akong safe..mahirap umasa baka mabigo...

On the other side of the story...

Yung pictures namin na mula sa Guimaras, merong lumabas na ORBS--I've read na merong espiritu na kung anu-anong mga supernatural beings na present s lugar na yun...tumapat pa yung orb dun ke Honey (team mate ko sa taekwondo)...

Tapos the night after the tournament, merong naamoy si Angel (team mate ko din sa taekwondo). Parang nakasinding kandila. She claimed that her 3rd eye was always awake. Kaya nakakakita siya ng mga hindi nakikita ng iba. Hindi lang nakikita, nararamdaman pa. Tapos nung gabing yun, ang sama daw ng tahol ng mga aso sa labas ng house nila. Syempre tinext niya kami kaagad (yun nga lang si Lyn June lang yung gising pa)..past 12 na kasi nung nangyari yun e.

Ang weweird talaga...

Sparring in Guimaras

2006-05-18T21:54:00.000-07:00

I just arrived from Guimaras yesterday at the "2nd Manggahan Taekwondo Championship"...

Whoo! Hell I'm so tired at nakalaban ko pa yung regional player ng Iloilo sa Championships. Kaya silver lang yung nakuha ko. Pero sulit naman kasi I have a prized pic with my TKD idol Monsour del Rosario. Plus, I had my Dobuk signed by Sir Benj--5th Dan black Belt and also a 5 time gold medalist. And oh, I forgot to mention, he's the former team Captain of the RP team in taekwondo. God I was so proud!

For the first time I brought my camera! Haha! I'll be in college in the next month, so I can do anything that I want. And what I want is to enjoy my days as a taekwondo jin. Representing our City, going to a lot of places and meeting people...

I'm gonna miss this...

2006-05-15T01:33:00.000-07:00

I've been eyeing this album for ages. There comes my inner voice: "huwag mo nang bulhin! Lang sibe yan!"...oh yeah right!

I really enjoyed this album! "Magpakailanman" by Rockstesddy just leaps off my player! I'm really in-love with the song. I wish I could sing that song (the more mellow version of the song) when I walk down the aisle! Nyahaha! Dreamy lil ol me! hehe...

Oh by the way, it was my cousin's birthday yesterday! Happy Birthday Lucky! He's just 8 eh..hehe.

This broke my heart. Just a while ago, my classmates and I went to my classmates place. It's their Annual Fiesta (You see I've been attending fiestas almost every month here in Iloilo). One of my classmates broke this news about our classmate. Her house got burned. I was like devastated, crushed and I felt pity of course. She's going to be a freshman in college. Why did this happen...because of "Caloy". It was found out that a short circuit must've occured coming from the frige. Then "zziiit" goes the wires and "puff" goes the fire. Then it burned 3 rooms and a kitchen. So they ended up living with their neighbor. Then the day after tomorrow (which is today), she had her interview for college. Let's pray for those victims of "Caloy"...

While on the other side, a close friend of mine in Taekwondo had a little prob too. Her Dad was admitted to the hospital just a week ago. Dunno, suffered from a fever maybe. At least he's quite fine now.

Me? I lost P1000! Wah! I lost the money that I was suppose to pay for the water bill! Yikes! This is such a big problem! Mom, got mad! Of course she would! I was soo clumsy that I couldn't do anything right! I hate this...I just hope the Sablayera turns to something else. I hope it's not worse...

Quiz: at Tickle.com

2006-05-10T21:33:00.000-07:00

Iya your signature color is Aqua Paradise

You're one-of-a-kind, that's for sure. A unique individual like you will make her mark with a bold, eye-catching color that's not afraid to be noticed. That's why we're pairing you up with Aqua Paradise. Your friends may sometimes question your choices in everything from what you wear to who you date, but they are likely to admire your willingness to experience all that life has to offer. In fact, it wouldn't surprise us if your experimental nature has helped you become ultra-secure in yourself — and that's a great way to be. You've also probably got a creative way of looking at the world that gives you a unique approach to solving problems, at home and at work. And your offbeat opinions and adventurous spirit likely make you a compelling character to pal around with. So keep it up, Aqua, and never give up on whatever paradise you seek!

Iya your inner rock star is Britney Spears!

Feel it, sweetheart; the rock star in you is all Britney—the envy of cheerleaders everywhere. One part girl next door, one part naughty sex kitten, you're definitely not as innocent as you look. And that is why nobody can get enough of you. You are the ultimate American girl with some serious staying power. Unlike other success stories, you and Britney are more than just a pretty face: you've got talent, confidence, and the brains to back it up. With a talent list like yours it's no wonder you're at the top of the popularity charts and young men's hearts. We love you. Shout out your inner Britney!

Iya in your Cinderella story, you'd get to Kiss the Prince

You don't need the pouffy dress, the fancy hair, or the 3-inch glass heels. A romantic soul like you just wants a guy who's a true companion, a good friend, a real prince. And if he's hot? All the better. But ultimately, you know that home is where the heart is. Which is probably why you surround yourself with good friends you can take care of and laugh with — friends who will do the same for you.But that doesn't keep you from fantasizing about the perfect relationship. It's not that you don't have your feet firmly planted on the ground. It's just that you're not afraid to shoot high. Or wish upon a shooting star. So keep reaching for your goals, Cinderella. If you do, your happily ever after can't be far away. And you can seal that with a kiss.

MU...edited.

2006-05-10T02:10:00.000-07:00

All afternoon in the Vice Mayor's office, I tried to write a masterpiece...sh*t can't even start writing one. I bacame really sleepy in the middle of the wee ours in the office. Which made the moment a little boring. Duh?

Alright, I'm gonna tell the whole truth about MU...

He's my brother's friend. It's a cliche actually, I think my love nerves tickles me again...darn I hate it when this happens...

So anyway, I'm planning to study in WVSU here in Iloilo...since Gramps won't allow me sa UP.

I am so bored right now. I've got nothing to do but dream about my college life. I've got a lot of requirements to pass before the next sem starts...

I just need a friend right now...

Passed...

2006-05-08T20:50:00.000-07:00

Hoot Hoot! I passed WVSU's IT! Out of 300+ applicants (konti lang talaga kasi ang nag-aaply dito kasi 40 lang yung kukunin na students para sa IT), I'm one of the 40 students who passed! Haha! Okay lang if I only ranked #18, got 9 mistakes in the exam! Happy na ako..

I saw those frowns on the frustrated students leaving the building kanina. Haaay, that's the time when I thought na: I was really so blessed...

Right now, I met up with Claessan (my close bud's bf). Here we are now, inside the cafe...P5 per hour full time internet. Mura lang kasi dito e.

Cresilda was the name of my close bud (uhuh, Claessan's gf), she went to UP Manila already to take her medicals for Nursing. Grabe nga niya, Nursing napasa niya sa UP Manila...kaso, she had to leave her bf here in Iloilo. Kawawa naman yung isa...

Eto medyo na-iilang pa rin ako sa ke Claessan kasi nga, this is the first time that I actually get to talk to him in person. Dati, Jane and I got introduced to him, pero he didn't paid much attention to us...hehe. Angit mo! (Visayan term yan! haha!--discover niyo nalang)

Oooh, me nakikinig dito sa cafe ng Take Me Out of the Dark by Gary V. Fave song ko yun...inspires me when I'm weary...sad little me.

Anyway, nagulat ako nung sinabi ko ke Claessan kung sino si "CUTIE!" wah! It's this cute guy I fancy..haha! Medyo forbidden lang kami...hehe. (secret!) Napakita ko pa sa kanya yung pic! Uy! Hiyang-hiya ako! Haha!

Yesterday, my na-discover ako...yung classmate nung kapatid ko (bawal yung name- kaya tawagin nalang siya nating "MU"), na medyo nagkagusto din ako dun (hehe!), e parang nagpaparamdam...ewan ko lang (haha! humahaba na buhok ko..ehehe). I was staring at him, as he passed by (nanood kasi kami na nag-jojog yung mga kasama namin sa Taekwondo), tapos parang me ibinulong sa kanya yung kasama niya. Then bigla nalang siyang LUMINGON! Tinitigan niya ako! wahaha! Although I'm not pretty sure na ako yun kasi nakatalikod naman si Angel e, ako lang yung medyo nakaharap.

Eye to eye contact talaga yung nangyari! Wah! Bigla akong yumuko! Hiyang-hiya talaga ako...tapos yun na kagabi, lagi siyang pumapasok sa isip ko. Ngiti nalang ako ng ngiti, ewan ko ba parang baliw! Haha!

Just this morning merong game yung kapatid ko sa LGU basketball (held every summer)...team mates pala sila!!! Goodness! haha! Pagdating na pagdating ko dun, siya yung isa sa mga players sa court. Tapos tinginan kami ng tinginan...naks...hehe. Nakakahalata na yata yung brother ko. Umalis nalang ako after na naproclaim na silang panalo. hehe

Nakakatuwa lang talaga tong morning na to...daming news. hehe...

nothings

2006-05-05T21:51:00.000-07:00

All the noise and stuff on the outside world is killing me. I can't get off the hook, I'm stuck at home pricking my whiteheads off and spraining a leg.

Well what can I say just to update? I'm the same o'l me, summer job, practicing taekwondo, staying at home, cleaning the house just to rush off the cafe.

I'm spending my lonely summer, trying to figure out, what school I should be in. My course would be IT or CompSci. Prob is...what school?? Gosh, it drives my nuts. With all the scholarships I have passed, I have to figure out what campus I should be in! Grrr..time is running out my friend!

I miss Johanna so much...

Haayyy...

Antique!: Long Post

2006-04-29T20:29:00.000-07:00

Check out our pic HERE.

And another...

HI! I'm back, fresh from Antique! I'll tell you about my Antique trip with my taekwondo buds...it's a long train of events and memorable moments...

April 28: The Arrival

I was really nervous about the match in Antique. I felt really bad about ny insecurities and the possibilities. Eto lang yung mga natatandaan ko na nangyari sa araw na ito:

-We got stranded in "Leganes" (it's a place in Iloilo). One of the cars broke down a bit, hehe. So, Sir Victor took the car to the pagawaan to have it fixed, while the rest of us pushed our butts in the cafe. Could you believe it? I sang 4 songs and got a high score sa videoke! Pagsubok by Kitchie Nadal - 93, Crazy For You by Spongecola - 96, With a Smile by Eraserheads - 95, Torete by Moonstar 88 - 89! Haha! they dropped lots of pennies just to hear me sing...awwws. hehe.

-Then the car arrived at about an hour. We now went on with our trip! As soon as we arrived, whoa grabe we were so exhau! We ate that night and drank lots of water.

-Sir Victor told us to sleep at 9pm. We were so disobedient! Angel and I hid these under our pillows: Sumo Waffer Sticks, Chikito peanuts, jellyace, large Piatos, Sandwiches and noodle cups! We pigged-out the whole night talaga! Until past 12 midnight...goodness ang takaw namin ano? Nahuli kami ni Sir na minumuya yung mga peanuts (which is pangontra sa mga athletes), natakot kami nung mahuli niya kami! Buti nalang walang punishment! hehe

April 29: The Tournament

-We woke up, sluggish as expected (kasi nga gabi na kami natulog nila Angel), took a bath and arranged everything that needs to be packed.

-When we arrived in the gym, my foot hurt and I couldn't move it freely, but I still ignored it. I saw the Jins from Negros and one of them was my idol player. She reigned like fire in every arena she played on! She knocked her opponent out in less than 30 seconds! That is so unbelievable! Kawawa yung nakalaban niya, di na makapagsalita sa sobrang sakin ng mouth niya. Power Roundhouse kick yung ginamit niya straight to the face...napa"Ooooch" yung audience! Nagalit yung Mama nung nakalaban nung idol ko grabe yung drama sa tournament!

-My match was the most STUPID match! I had more that 5 violations, lost because of it! It was my chance to grab gold! The score was 1-2, she was 1 and my score was 2! Obviously I won, if it weren't for my violations! We had a sudden death match and she defeated me with her aggressiveness! So, I have to settle for silver at the championships. That was total: Grrrness. (You know what's my secret weapon? It's prayer, sincere prayer, tight faith and complete trust--believe me)

-Just after my match, Kuya Ed (my pinaytalk friend) wanted to meet me in person. Me too, I wanted to see him sa personal. EB kami nung day na yun sa tournament. It's really a small world actually, kasi yung kasama niya textmate nung classmate ko na si Honeylen--which happens to be the sister of Allen--na teammate ko sa taekwondo. O di ba? hehe. So we talked until I was medalled. Sabi niya, he'll meet me the next day for some major picture taking...

-After all the whim-whams in the tournament, some of us were secretly told to go to Jollibee to eat lotsa foood. We ordered a lot, after all the frustrations in the tournament. Our team ended 3rd runner up sa over-all. That was our second trophy, coz Passi City just made the club, 2 years ago.

-After eating, we ordered for additional ice cream, we pigged-out again! Hehe. Angel and I went a little nuts and agreed to find our way to our Quarters by just WALKING. Considering that we weren't familiar with the place coz it's just our 2nd time there. WE went in a lot of twists and turns until, napa-"Hayyy salamat!" kami ni Angel kasi narating namin yung DECS office kung san kami nastestay.

-Pool Party! Pagkatapos ng tiring kicks, we went swimming, kasi sa harap nung DECS office (which is just 5 steps away) ay isang malaking olympic pool! Whoo! We swam until we got tired of paddling our legs sa tubig. (Muntik pa malunod yung mga bata sa 4 feet)

-Nung natapos na, may secret kami ni, Angel, basta. Me nakita kaming kakaiba dun sa pool...hehe. Secret nga e!

-Pagkatapos ay bumihis na kami papuntang quarters.

-Punta kaming rooftop. We talked and talked about our last fights. Until...may Fireworks Display! Ang ganda talaga, napapa-"Whoa!" kami ng mga kasama ko! As in ang ganda talaga.
Wanna know my dream date? Ano pa? Edi ang makapunta sa Sydney Aussie, sa isang private boat tapos may dinner don, tapos my music...the best part? May fireworks display na surprise para sa akin! Grabe! Dun ko na nalaman na hindi pala ako nasa Sydney, kundi nasa Antique sa rooftop...haaay.

April 30: The End.

-Gumising kami at about 6am. Fixed everything and bid goodbye to all the things that we've done in tha past 2 days. We knew that everything else belongs to history. Ang lungkot talaga...

-Kuya Ed was supposed to meet me to take pics! Sayang at 'di ako nakapagload! Nagiguilty talaga ako! Sobra!

For kuya ed...
Sorry talaga if di ko pa napaalam sa inyo na aalis na po ako! Sorry gid kung la ta ka na-inform nga malakat na ko. bal-an ko medyo kalain sang ginhimo ko sa imo. Pasensya gid Manong. I promise to make it upto you kahit ano basta kaya ko...ihambal lang kung paano. Para di ka lang mangakig sa akon.

Although Some of you may not get what I meant, kasi nga nasa "BISAYA" yung mga sinabi ko. And Kuya Ed is from Antique...kaya nagkakaintindihan kami in dialect.

-And now that I'm here in front of the monitor, typing everything we've done nung nasa Antique pa ako...

2006-04-26T20:03:00.000-07:00

Here's the link to expand: http://i3.tinypic.com/wjuat0.jpg or http://img176.imageshack.us/my.php?image=28fn.png
Halo! i made this stuff sa Encarta Chart Maker. Wala lang, just went a little nuts sa break namin dun sa office. I get to use the computer for free! hehe, kaso walang internet connection. Clear naman siguro yung nakalagay sa Personalized Chart ko di ba?

To repeat, it presents my preference pagdating sa guys. Smart Looking boys capture my heart pag-at-first-sight! Oooh!

The next match

Punta na akong Antique bukas for the tournament in Binirayan Complex. Well kahit air-conditioned pa yung gym, mainit pa rin ang labanan.

Well I'll be asking a little help from you guys. Just through prayers. Remember what I said about my TKD spar on my last post? Yun yung kinakabahan kong mangyari sakin...Jeez.

Thank You For the Button!

I'd like to bring pride to the one who offered to make me this button over here:

Isn't she a beauty? Thank You http://she.pink-blush.org/ for giving me this button. Visit niyo naman site na toh! Ina-advertise ko!

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hello! blogworld

2006-04-24T21:05:00.000-07:00

Hi! Bago layout ko, actually binili ko pa to worth P90 sa http://pinaytalk.net. Mura lang kasi I earn money from posting sa forums...thank you miss Danna for sponsoring this layout.hehe.

MP3p

It means M.y P.hilosophical T.rip (3P). I want my new url to speak for its own. Lalagay ako ng mga posts na halos puro self-examinations o soul-searching. Baka palang dito ko makikilala ang sarili ko ng mas UP-CLOSE di ba? Coz we had to admit, we don't fully know ourselves yet. Kaya sisimulaan natin sa mga everyday journeys natin. I have to make it a point na may natututunan ako sa mga posts ko. Pati na rin kayo.

So who wants to go trippin' witme? Comment lang po kayo sa ibaba ng kada post. Aabangan ko po yun...plus pwede niyo din akong kwentuhan ng kahit anong pangayayaring related sa post na nilagyan niyo ng comment. Comments make us feel better. Marami din akong natututunan sa mga kwento ng iba e...

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First Story

Losing Grip

We have our weekly sparring sessions in TKD every sunday. And as always, I'd have Angel as my sparring partner. She's 5'9 tall while I stand at the height of 5'2. (pretty cool difference huh?). It so happened that I've been gaining a lot of weight which made me look like a beach ball in a Dobuk (taekwondo uniform).

As we began, she fired me a powerful stomping-kick and almost whacked me off the ring. I fell down in humiliation. Kick #2 followed and then again I fell down. I was about to cry after I turned red, coz' some of our teamates laughed their head off the scene. I felt really bad after...
I had my last fall...I tripped and lost my grip. I out-balanced and fell-out-of-reach. Again, they laughed.

I tried to hide the pain that I've felt...so I reached for the rosary and prayed hard from the experience...

New URL for me!

2006-04-17T20:26:00.000-07:00